i can't make it go away..

i tried running away from it..

tried pretending..

tried hiding...

there will always be something or someone to drag you right back. you'll always end up facing yourself no matter how far you run.

when i woke up this morning, it's still heartbreaking.. the pain is still there.. and those flashbacks keep on coming back.. its like watching a movie in a cinema all day.. a drama.. 

sometimes i just feel like i wanna go somewhere else.. to be alone.. just be with myself.. no one else but me.. feel like i just wanna sit under the tree.. near the beach.. and let it all out..


i wanna jump out of a plane with no parachute.. ride a motorcycle like i'm not going to crash..


thinking, no one is going to hurt you.. like on sleepless nights when there's nothing but the tick of the clock.. those nights when there is no such thing as minutes or hours.. those nights when there's no time.. only darkness