i can forget all you lies, i can forgive all your mistakes, but what im really wishing for this christmas, is to make you pain go away.... i am your friend, and i'll just be here by your side... i felt the pain you've been through, and figured out the reasons for your actions, i cant do anything bout what happened before, but i will be your friend.. i will always be your friend... ='c

Don't ever change just to impress and please someone. Change because it makes you a better person & it leads you to a better future.

birthday alert!!!!

BIRTHDAY next week...
what's the best thing to do on a BIRTHDAY???
need to plan ASAP...

come what may

i love my best friend, my sponge bob, almost like my sister,,,and i dont need a man right now, coz i have all i need right here....

alright, its proven that i really am a shopaholic...! my colleague told me that i am an impulsive buyer....

i love CHOCOLATES....!

he is nice...

here's the situation...we have this activity, and went downstairs... each one was given a headset. i have this wavemate, who has nice eyes, he is so silent,,maybe because he's only been here less than 2yrs,,anyway, in that activity, we were given headsets, right?,,im a bit surprised when he is always giving me his headset, coz there are limited headsets..isnt he nice?..love his accent..he has a british accent..but not originally from UK, but he worked there once.. what im just trying to say is that.. he is N-I-C-E!

its saturday! and i havent got my sleep yet...not sleepy even after shift...still wants to watch movies....=)

oh my,,,i have many nicknames na....

its monday...its holiday today here in Philippines, but we have work tonight...that's ok, at least we'll get a holiday pay,,hehehehe

sabi nila.. if something is bothering u daw, ilabas mo lahat..kaya e2 gngawa ko..

just keep on wondering,,just this past few days, someone is texting me..i know who she is,,she called me once, i thought it was someone else coz after i said "hello" on the phone, i heard a guy's voice, so i assumed it was my friend who used his cousin's number again to call me..but it wasn't him, its her..the girl whom i used to know but then, gave up the friendship just for the sake of a relationship...

why does she keep on texting me?....hayts...i think i'll just change my number after my bday...

but here comes another one...

yesterday, sunday..i was in the mall..how would you feel if someone from your past wanna caught your attention?...awkward..."hello! have you forgotten what happened in the past???! or you just want me to think that nothing happened and everything's ok... bad news, coz its not ok, ok??" (of course, those words never came out from my mouth)...i ignored that person first, like i didn't hear someone called me,, but then, when i was about to leave,,i said "hey!" then left...i dont wanna look into that someone's eyes..coz i know that someone will notice that i still have the pain,,maybe that someone had been forgiven, but i can assure you, i can never ever forget what that someone had made me feel...

i dont know what the intentions of these people..but hey.. great news....im ok now..maybe i change a bit,,and im ok with it,,i just dont wanna pretend,,, whatever happened before, it doesnt mean that i had forgotten all the details..

i love my friends...,be true to me and i will be true to you...
you know how scorpions are, right????

i miss albert einstein....

mwaaaahhhhh...just got home.....goodnight....zzzzzzz

gosh, i can't believe that im turning 20 this month... dont have any plans yet on how to celebrate my bday...hayts....

friendships, you can contact me through email... email me at lady_rose81826@yahoo.com .... thank you for viewing my blog friendships...=)

soon, i'll be techy....

"IDEAL PARTNER IN LIFE" -- wrote last night for an activity

Each one of us longs for someone who will be there fort he rest of our lives. In my point of view, there is no such thing as an "ideal partner" or "the right one." We must not be dependent on DESTINY. All of us can find a potential partner perhaps, but once you discover flaws from him, do you immediately say that "he's not the right one for me?" The question is not in finding the best  partner, but being the best partner for him.

It means that he must not be the only one making an effort to fight for the relationship, You, as his partner, must also fight for the sake of your relationship. Its like you are in a highway, it is a two-way road, which means that both of you need to work together. The best partner that we can have in life is someone who will be there no matter what both of you are going through. Someone who can accept your imperfections. Someone who can make you a better person and who let's out the best of you. Relationships are all about acceptance, honesty, loyalty and the other factors that helps a relationship grow.

If you are thinking of someone while reading this, ask yourself, "AM I BEING HIS/HER BEST PARTNER?"

sometimes, you just have to believe....

take a chance, because you never know how absolutely perfect some things might turn out...=)

at times, a HUG is worth a thousand words...=)

must translate a filipino song to english......jeez!

conflict of sched!huhu! next saturday my shift will be at 5pm, and my training in workshop will end at exactly 5pm...what to do?what to do?

hmmmmm

OCP will start next week!!!

a letter...

Dear X,

Lam mo, nagtataka talaga ako qng bt kita mapapaginipan lageh. Di naman kita iniisip. Anu kaya ibig savhin nun? I asked a friend earlier today, and she told me that maybe its because we still need to settle something. Can you still remember what happened between us? You said our relationship was so complicated.

You’re the type of guy who makes everything as simple as possible. Your basis for the relationship is LOVE. You told me one time that ‘why give up if we still have a reason to fight for?’ Maybe that’s the reason why I admired you the most.

We both know that we were meant to be together. Cguro tama nga ata cnav mo na ung pagmamahal napapagod din. Nakapanghihinayang na alam nating na mahal natin ang isa’t isa but then because of some circumstances, our relationship became complicated. Alam mo ung feeling na, we were there na, we started making plans for both of us, but then e2 nangyari sa tin.

Minsan pag naiicp q panaginip q 2ngkol sau, sa mga flashbacks at pag naririnig q mga kanta natin ulit, di q maiwasang mapaiyak. Sign ba 2 na mahal pa rin kita? Or reminder lang 2 na tapucn ung dapat tapucn? Cmula nung napapaginipan kita gabi gabi, mas lalo qng namimiz ung guy na nakilala ko.

Bigla q naalala lahat lahat. Ung part na aq ung unang naipakilala mo sa parents mo, ung ako ung un among binigyan ng flowers at ikaw ung unang nagbigay sa kin ng flowers. Lam mo nung cnav mo sa kin na ung ugali ng niligawan mo kagaya ng ugali ko o kagaya ko, naicp qng hinahanap mo sa iba ung katangian na meron ako.

Hay, heto n naman ako. I’m stuck again. I thought I forgot this feeling na but I was wrong. Di pala nakakalimutan ung bagay na 2 noh? Kasi there will be time na maaalala mo talaga ung past. Sa totoo lang, para kang matter, you really occupies the biggest space in my life kahit di tayo nagtagal gaya ng inaasahan natin.

Ok, I just published this kasi gs2 q malaman mo, d pa rin kita makalimutan. At sana one day, we’ll cross each other’s paths and be able to settle everything. And I really miss you. Sana may comm pa tau. If ever na magkausap tau, sana andun pa rin ung friendship natin, para we’ll be able to open up.

Hope you’re doing ok.

hay....kumusta n kaya ung taong un...namimiss q na din...layo naman nya kc eh...tsaka dnelete n nya number q sa cp nya...hayts....u think naaalala p din nya ako?...sana magtxt naman xa sa kin sa globe ko...

bt bgla kitang naalala at napaginipan last night?

sooooooooooooo happy...! =D

I enjoyed the last day of FST,, we had a fashion show and everyone had so much fun..=)

Do you guys know a site where I could download an audiobook for British English?

British accent is very interesting and challenging too...=D

Been trying to learn the British Accent..ehehehehe...its fun,,

Had our assessment today. Jeez! So tired..

Hello UK! =D

I'm really enjoying my week. But I'm exhausted at the end of the day.

mobile phone..=)

Gotta go now, my niece and my nephew are going to play a game in my notebook. Love ya guys! mwah!

Yehey! Tomorrow na! UK account. Dami na naman akong makikilala bukas! hehe! Puyatan to! haha!

sunday..hmmm...

There are many things coming along in our journey. I received a bad news couple of minutes ago. Thankful ako, kasi at least nalaman ko, di ba? Everything happens for a reason. May mga bagay n nangyayari, kahit masakit man, la na tayong magagawa, andyan na yan eh, di na mababalik pa. Sabi nga ni DJ Chacha, "cge iiyak mo lang yan, kasi balang araw tatawanan mo na lang yan." And that's right, kasi meron talagang "KARMA"

Guys, I have a question, why do you always have to left the girl hanging, rather than ending the relationship? Kung di niyo na mahal, sabihin niyo, wag niyong paasahin, kawawa ang babae eh, pinagmumukha niyong tanga. Ako talaga, sinabi ko sa sarili ko, "tama na", I need a break right now, from my lovelife. Last year, talaga, that was the worst year so far. Lam mo ung feeling na, grabeh napakahopeless na talaga. Mas worst pa ung last year na nangyari kesa sa nangyari sa 1st bf ko.

In every break-up, you are just given a chance, a chance to enjoy your life and know yourself more, a chance to be happy. Ung mga bagay na di mo nagagawa dati nong may bf/gf ka, magagawa mo na. We just have to face it in a different perspective. Kasi, if we get stuck, wala, walang mangyayari sa tin, eh wala na nga yun di ba?..

Sana, lahat tayo (pati din sana ako), mahalin natin ang mga sarili natin, kasi at the end of the day, la na ibang tutulong sa tin kundi sarili natin at si God eh. Minsan napapaiyak ako sa mga nangyayari sa ibang tao, di ko alam kung bakit eh, di ko naman sila kaanu anu.

Hay..

sana ung ibang tao jan wag ng umepal pa sa relasyon..pnptawa nlang namin ung gurl kagabi thru comments..pinagpalit b naman xa at ng anak nya sa isang jejemon, ung jejemon naman lumalandi sa asawa nya, kapal nya...ahy naku, naiinis talaga ako sa mga taong nakikisawsaw...

para sa mga nakakathird party jan..

grabe, e2 im listening to dj chacha right now..may mga listeners na nagask ng advice because of third party. ahy naku, bt kaya ganun ung ibang tao noh?..kahit alam nila na may asawa na or may bf/gf na, may mga taong epal, nakikisawsaw pa sa relasyon..d nila nare2alize na may pamilyang nasisira..

last night, may nagshare ng story, a gurl, 19 years old, may anak..may asawa, pero ung asawa nagkarun ng kabit..may anak sila ha, tas iniwan pa asawa nya dahil sa ibang babae..hay naku..ang landi ah..the gurl was crying last night talaga bcoz she didnt know what to do..she's still studying pala..and wherever she goes, nakikita nya ung dalawa..

daming naiyak at nagcomment sa story ng gurl..nadala din ako sa story nya..napaiyak  din ako..i dont know why but it just happened..

sana naman..ung mga third party jan..sana marealize nyo qng ganu kahalaga ung cncra nyong relasyon..wag ninyong hintaying makarma kayo..

I thought it's going to be yesterday, unfortunately, we were transferred to july 25th batch. Hayts. Anyway, I got it, so I don't have to worry about it. Yeah, I got it pepz!

We are handling a UK account, so it's going to be a challenge. This is the first time i got in with this kind of industry. So, I have to try my best. Plans are ongoing, and its going to be great. I'm going to invite my best friend (and we're like sisters), hope these plans are going to be successful coz I just wanna utilize every opportunity.

Oh yeah, its been so long since I posted something here.

Guys, add me up in my facebook account: lady_rose81826@yahoo.com.

What's been going on to my life lately? Hmmmm?

Obviously, I'm happy. ( =D ) There were a few bumps at first, but eventually its a smooth ride. Lifestyle have been changing a bit. Not interested in having a love life. Just wanna hang out and go to places I've never been before. This August, I'm planning to go with my cousin someplace, do some activities, rides, sports, etc.

From where I'm standing right now, I'm still wondering how I made it. I didn't know where did I get that motivation that made me try harder than the last encounters.

Oh, I have another news. Me and my cousin have a new pet. He actually named her, Katkat. Its a kitty and its so cute, I love it cuddle it every night.

I think that's all for today. Probably I'll post again after a few days, whenever I have the time to tell my story.

shocks!

Had the worst moment yesterday in MRT. Grrrrr!

Sabi niya...

I'm staying in a new place. I'm starting to love it here.

It only takes courage, hope, passion, faith and prayer.

I messed up making impulsive decisions. Good thing chances are unlimited and there are opportunities everywhere. Just need to find it at the right place and at the right time.

When a door closes, there's always a window. This is it. But this time, I have to concentrate on my goals. No more distractions. I'm pretty much exhausted trying to build something that doesn't even exists. I know there's something for me out there. My passion doesn't end with a simple fall. I have to utilize what I have.

"Everything is possible,

Nothing is impossible."

I gotta start all over again..

alam mo ba ung feeling na.. pag cra araw mo bnbiro mo nlng mahal mo para mpangiti xa.. tapos magiging ok kn?

“No truth can cure the sadness we feel from losing a loved one. No truth, no sincerity, no strength, no kindness, can cure that sorrow. All we can do is see that sadness through to the end and learn something from it, but what we learn will be no help in facing the next sadness that comes to us without warning.”

If you love someone, tell them every day because life is too short for regrets.

I'm gonna be needing a lot of courage to do so..

“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”

—	William Shakespeare

“It didn’t ache because he was gone. It ached because he didn’t tell her when he would come back. All that distance and all that time apart would turn them into strangers again.”

At Musing’s End (Wong Fu Productions)

A picture is worth a thousand words but a simple phrase is worth a thousand pictures. A phrase may only consist of a few words but there can be so much history, memories and things that want to be said behind them. You don’t have the need to say it because you feel you need to but rather it’s something that comes out naturally when you think about a certain someone. So, an I love you is not only an I love you because the meaning behind it is stronger than you could ever imagine.

Someone once told me that it is simply pointless to burden yourself with the regrets of your past. She said that for one to live beautifully, one must be able to grow into something remarkable despite the troubles in life. You could cry or try to fix something that can no longer be repaired but in the end, it’s how you grow as a person.

Pictures..

I find a photograph takes you back and makes you think about a lot of things.Where was this photo taken? What did we talk about before we took this photo? How was I feeling? How were you feeling?  Where are we now? Do we still have that same relationship we portrayed in the photograph? How much have we changed?

A photograph can also represent change. A reminder that something was once real and can also be a wake up call that not everything lasts forever.

Everyone has a secret they haven't shared. Everyone has a past no one's heard about. Everyone has talents that people don't notice. Everyone has weaknesses hidden inside. Everyone has a story left untold, so never start judging someone thinking you know them back to front. Because the truth is, you probably don't.

Falling out of love.

When people fall in love, they do so for a number of reasons. For some people it is because they are lonely, and they have been longing to meet someone that they can talk to and spend time with at an intimate level. Though they might have friends, they feel their life is incomplete until they meet that someone. And once they meet that someone, they discover that they really didn’t need that person. They realize that they can stand up on their own. What they were looking for, they already had. They just never realized that. Thus they fell in love for the wrong reason and once that reason is fulfilled, they fall out of love.

It’s very easy nowadays to fall in lust and mistake that for being in love. And once that lusting desire is over, you fall out of love.

Most people, who fall in love due to chemistry and not commitment, are the ones that end up being in love with so many different people time after time. As soon as the chemistry goes, they fall out of love and move on to the next person they have chemistry with.

Chemistry is just the anticipation of sex. It won’t last forever. When you meet someone new, there is always the adrenaline rush, especially if you have things in common. Your body identifies with that person and once you are relaxed and comfortable with the person. Your desire to have sex with that person arises and that would end up to be a one night stand or several nights stands depending on how satisfied you are.

The other reason why people fall out of love is due to their expectations not having been met. When they fell in love, they had high expectations depending on what they wanted. But after some time in the relationship they discover that their expectations are not being met. Maybe they wanted someone who would compliment them and appreciate them, but this is not the case. Instead they have someone calling them names and disrespecting them. After they have had enough, they fall out of love with that person and move on to a different relationship with someone that meets their needs.

The other reason why people fall out of love is mistreatment by their partner. When they first meet someone he is so good, so sweet and kind. But after some time they change. The person then can’t take this anymore and falls out of love and moves on with their life and find someone who treats them better. Nobody wants to be mistreated though some people will tolerate it for a while. But just because they tolerate it, doesn’t mean they enjoy it.

Guys especially, tend to be sweet at first and later change into mean ones. These guys that do, that are already mean but pretend to be sweet when they meet a girl and once the girl is attached to them, their true self is revealed, since they can’t pretend forever.

And last but not least the reason why people fall out of love is because they weren’t in love in the first place. There was no commitment; there was just the idea. The idea of being in love seems awesome but it takes work to stay in love. You have to keep doing good. You have to keep appreciating your partner. You have to keep supporting your partner even when the times are tough you have to hang in there and stick together and solve problems together and enjoy victories together.

Being in love is so much publicized that a lot of people go into it without fully realizing what they are doing. They don’t really know the true meaning of being in love. They think of it as a candy shop, where you walk in when there’s candy and don’t go there when there’s no candy. With being in love, you walk in when there’s candy (chemistry) and even when there’s no candy (chemistry) you still stay until the candy (chemistry) is back.

Chemistry doesn’t last forever but being in love does. Chemistry contributes to the relationship being exciting, but love sustains the relationship and keeps it going.

A loss of chemistry is normally due to other commitments that take away the time for sex or a change in appearance of your partner. All these can be worked out by spending more romantic time together. The thing you liked about your partner at the beginning of the relationship should continue throughout the relationship. Relationships are about spending time together. Most relationships end because of lack of this.

If people fall in love for the right reasons and commit to it and build their relationship and keep on spending time together and supporting each other, then they will stay in love much longer.

People have different upbringings and thus different goals and expectations. This is why when they first meet someone new, they want to get to know them and see if they are on the same wavelength. The more things in common you have with someone the better the relationship. Communication is the key to any relationship. Couples that talk stay in love and couples who don’t talk stay out of love’. Thus when you meet someone new you have to know them first. Before there is contact of the genitals, there should be contact of the minds.

Successful relationships are based on trust, honesty, love, tolerance, sharing and forgiveness.

Most relationship breakdown is normally due to lack of one or more of these things.

Every relationship far or near will break up or maybe more one way or another. Later in life there will be more sacrifices than relationship themselves. You’re going to work, move out etc. You’ll always be leaving something behind. Life always changes, and so do relationships. You evolve with each other. It’s not about who loses and one person throws everything away to be with somebody. It’s more about accommodating them into your life and being considerate of each other. 

Relationships are not simple things, they have so many factors and it is a complex process that others cannot understand fully unless it’s the two lovers. Even in person you’re going to be talking on the phone and webcamming, doing activities repeatedly. Long distance relationships are no different, they may have a higher thrill from seeing each only every so often. But it is also a beautiful thing, two people separated by distance and fate, working hard to write their own paths together.

So to whose who doubt long distance, and think “ohh you’re just going to breakup” So will you in person. So will you living next door to them. Even maybe because they exist further away you’ll learn the real meaning of appreciation, dedication and patience.

Those who doubt it should just never be in relationships if you’re always going to think of the end and conclusion. Every relationship is a learning process, it’s not simply break up and move on. It’s all about what you’re going to do with that time with them.

People spend too much time pondering the “what if and the end” than “what now and what can I do now to make sure we don’t walk separate paths”

Everyone says that LOVE hurts, but that's not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuse these things with LOVE. But in reality, LOVE is the only thing that covers up all the pain and makes us wonderful again.

“Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren’t meant to stay. Sometimes, change may not be what we want. Sometimes, change is exactly what we need. and sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you’ll ever have to do, but sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible. Sometimes, change is too much to bear. But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.”

"Understanding"

Generally, I think I’m an understanding person? It can be wonderful but it can also be frustrating. Some are willing but others are closed off. When you understand a person, you could know how they feel. You could know what their favourite song to sing to in the morning. You could know how they like their eggs. 

The effort isn’t always mutual. Sadly.

At last, natapos ko na. Need to rest.

Bata na naman ako..

San ka ba dito? Ako, tingin ko, hmmm,.

It's official...

I have been looking at the pictures lately.
Looking at these pictures, I miss you more than I realized.
I miss those moments.
I've been missing the way you look into my eyes.
I've been missing how you held my hand, and told me that everything will be alright.
I've been missing you...

Gosh, got drunk, fell asleep, then I woke up just to check out my emails. I better go back to sleep, mwaaahhhh!

Kept for reference, hehe..

hehe..

"INSIDIOUS"..A very nice movie..

Kung anong meron ka, pahalagahan mo. Hindi yung sinasadya mo pang makuha ng iba, tapos maya-maya naman eh magsisisi ka. Hihingi ka lang ng tulong sa iba kung kailan huli na.

Sometimes words aren't just enough to let someone know how you feel, there are moments when you have to show them.

I love Spongebob so much...=D

The female dictionary, hehe

• Nothing, Forget it = You better figure out what you did wrong.
• Are you tired? = Please don’t go to sleep, I love talking to you.
• I’m OK = Hold me tight, I need a shoulder to cry on.
• I don’t give a fuck anymore = I still care but I’m tired of arguing with you.
• “I’m cold” = Get a blanket and cuddle with me.
• Leave me alone = Please don’t go.
• I love you = Tell me you do more.

You used to tell me that I was a beautiful dreamer. One who could visualize moments of hope and light in such heart drenching moments. These days, it is quite challenging to dream beautifully. What is a beautiful dream? A dream of pure bliss and worry-free? A dream in which we could have everything we’ve been yearning for? Dream beautifully.

I stopped expressing my emotions into words. And I don't know why. Let the quotes speak for me.

mwwwaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

Lots of love,

Loraine

<3

The Conversation (so awkward)..

I'm using my smart number today. I was surprised this afternoon when I received a text message from the girlfriend of my "best friend in Palawan". I did not expect that someone will still contact me in my old number. But anyway, I talked to her tonight, my best friend called me. I'm not actually expecting a call from her. Because I am trying to call someone else (I hate using this network, I can't make a call.)

My best friend, Quennie, We knew each other for almost 8yrs. but we haven't met in person yet. Her voice, when I heard her voice, I began to miss what we had before, those texts, every minute of everyday. She still worries too much. And I'm finding it hard to say anything to her, right now. I don't know what I'm going to say.

"Loraine, best, magsalita ka naman oh. Masama bang sabihing namiss kita? Nakwento ni Rosela na tumawag ka daw sa kanya kanina eh. Miss na talaga kita best, sana magkita na tayo."

"Best? Andyan ka pa ba? I miss you best. Sana di ka na galit sa kin."

Anyway, I can't talk to her at this moment, I have to call someone. So we're just texting.

I can't say much right now, about me, about my life. So, maybe on my next posts, it will just be quotes and pictures. 

“Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you, and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all. It isn’t about who you kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you. It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that. But life is about who you love, and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion.”

Memories..

They can be quite interesting. There are those memories you want to treasure. The memories you try so hard to let go because you know they can no longer be rekindled. The memories you wish never formed.

You could say that I’m a memories kind of person. I like keeping tangible pieces that hold a lot of memories for me. You know what though? I’ve grown to learn how to let go of some of these tangible pieces that hold memory. I guess I just grew tired of finding myself looking back at these tangible pieces that in the end, make feel disappointment in myself.

It was then I realized you don’t have to keep every memories. I don’t think we’re capable of carrying them all with us as we live life. You need to segregate what’s worth holding on to and what needs to go.

 I love the movie "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button"
=)