im just a friend...

confused by his words..

confused by his actions..

now its clear..

that im just his friend..

really....this one is very different from the relationships i've been with before...you think there's still a chance for a happy ending?...his concept of love is very different from mine...all i know is that...if you really wanna be with someone,  you will make it happen no matter what...coz its better to face tomorrow together than be alone..it will worth it..

last night before the conversation had ended, felt like, he's almost giving up..his faith is shaking..and i...i was a bit confused..knowing who is he with right now..i dont think i have a right to be jealous..i dont really have the right to be jealous...its not like im his girlfriend..im just his friend..and its just...he's making me feel like he wanted me to be his girlfriend...just remembered the quote: "people say that action speaks louder than words, but sometimes you still have to hear the words and see the actions at the same time..because words without actions are EMPTY and actions without words are CONFUSING"...

based from what i learned in my experiences in life (although im still young)...when you really love someone and you wanna be with that person, you make make it happen...doesnt matter what circumstances might come to your way...because you'll be facing it together...just have to be strong, have courage, keep the faith, trust, loyalty...and what really matters in a relationship..is his/her happiness..because in loving someone, foolishness can ruin the relationship, no matter how great your love is...just have to think where he/she will be happy..sometimes you just have to make sacrifices in order for that special someone to be happy...

yesterday there was another job offer to me..(its actually the second one - the first offer was last january but i declined/rejected the offer because i cant entertain him if im already working by the time he arrives here in Philippines)...but i never regret that decision coz i (finally) met him..its just worries me (no matter how many times i've been denying it to myself), coz we both know we like each other and just not ready to take a risk yet...i think he's just afraid that maybe in the future it wont work out (yeah i know what he's thinking - i dont know why i know him already even if we've only spent few days together)..he said he likes me..but i dont know if he can accept me or if he's willing to take a risk for a happy ending...