destiny???

"please dont let thing feeling end,

its everything i am,

everything i wanna be"

what if...there is no such thing as "DESTINY"?..i think lovers would exert more effort so they wont be apart..i notice that most of us right now are taking our partners for granted..knowing that they will always be there for us..but i just wanna remind you guys that all of us get tired at some point, especially if efforts are not appreciated..

we just have to be contented of what had been given to us, and whatever has been given i hope you'll appreciate it..coz once its lost, you'll have regrets..the most important thing that we should be doing..is we have to try...we have to try exerting effort and fighting for what we believe in..whatever might happen..if you got what you want or not, its ok..as long as you have tried to make it work, right?..it will not be your loss...

have you ever experienced fighting for someone before, but then it didnt worked out?...and right now you're afraid to try again...its because, you're afraid of getting hurt for the same reason....a friend once told me that if you wanna be happy with your life, if you wanna be with someone, you have to risk it all..and make everything work, be able to adjust...coz once you push something in your own way, wherever you wanna be, you can never be there...

at some point, i have experienced before, being in a situation, where he and i loved each other..and we were so happy together..we're like kids...and i was sitting outside, in the stairs..he just came to me and made me smile...at that time, we're still strangers...i honestly wasnt expecting that i'd be able to love again..but then i did..and when we were together, i remembered, there were lots of hindrances came our way..and what made us strong..is that..we were still there for each other no matter what happens..no matter how complicated it was..it was all worth it...you know why?..because we fought for something special...and i felt how magical it was, when i realized..we were happy..coz if i lost him or he lost me, we know that we would be miserable...i felt happy especially when he introduces me to his family, his mother is very nice to me, as well as his sisters and cousins, and friends..there's nothing more i could ask for...one day, he knew that i was worried about us..(he does have a gf and they didnt had any formal breakup, and i know that they still have communication)..one morning, he called me, know what he told me?...he told his mom that he wants to get married..(who's the girl?..me)..surprised as i was..everything happened so fast..but then...as time flies..people change...after a couple of weeks, he started making me feel like he's going to leave me..he started asking questions like "if i would be leaving you, will you allow me?"..we had an argument at that night, he knows that i loved him, then he was asking me that question..what i did?..i fought for it..he knew how painful it is for me..the next morning..he apologized....from then on, we were much stronger...(to make the story short, in the end, it didnt worked out because some people prefer to be somewhere else than to be with you----just a flashback from the past).....

my point is..look at me..i didnt had any regrets of that relationship..because i tried..they knew how much i tried..it just..didnt worked out as i had imagined it would be...im still happy though, coz i know one day, i will be happy...just keep on believing...and just do what makes you happy...=)