i dnt know what happened to me

everything's alright..im with myself, not with someone,,not getting close to any guy so i wont get attached..

but..

one day, i saw him..and i told myself "here we go again"..when i looked at him i feel like crying already, so i just acted like i dont care, and like we're strangers again..i dont know him and he doesnt know me..i was trying to avoid him..when i saw him, i was surprised to see him, i was shocked seeing him..while i was approaching someone that he's talking with, our eyes met, not just a glance..but i mean we stared at each other's eyes...i hope he didnt notice how i was feeling when i saw him..but then, after i asked the the person who he's talking with, i immediately turn away..when i was already in the multicab, that moment was stuck in my head, like a video tape that's played in slow motion,,

then, on the afternoon, while i was asking the lady on the table about something, i dnt know if it was just a coincidence or what, but are these things signs that he's the one for me?..but we're through, and past is past..i cnt go back..anymore..

its better this way, im alone,,no bf..i've set my priorities, and i'll turn my plans into action..no more distractions,,i learned my lesson..i dnt wanna be left expecting and loving someone that much..and the guy is staying away from me coz he thinks that its better to be apart...i wanna live happily..gain more friends, hang out with them, watch movies, go shopping and everything...i wanna make decisions for my own..and this time, i've decided..i dnt wanna have a bf yet unless im ready to be committed...

although, seeing couples anywhere i go,,make me so insecure..