Have you ever tried finding a quiet place and trying to recall a certain moment? You slowly inhale and exhale. While you do this, you slowly close your eyes. You put yourself in that mindset that takes you to where that particular moment was. From the weather to the very feeling that you felt when it happened. The moment seems too surreal because of the vividness of the vision. 

It could make you smile or cry. Regret or yearn for more. Whatever it is, once you open your eyes; you realize that nothing can be done for what has been done is done.

so true...

i think its adorable to stay up all night, just to talk to the person they like...=)

Even though they’re terribly sleepy, they would stay up pass 12 o’clock just to keep the conversation going. And even though you get tired at 1 o’clock you fight the urge to sleep because you don’t want it to end.

But if they do sleep, you can sleep happily because in the morning you’re going to be expecting a message from them apologizing for falling asleep and then the conversation starts again.

so cute...=)

i managed to lived without you, and surprised, i'm still breathing..

Life is much easier when you let go of the things that refrains you from being happy, from having fun, and from being you. It is going to be hard to move on, and to let go. But then you will realize how it was worth the tears, the sadness, and the pain. Sometimes being able to free yourself from the misery, no matter how much you think you can’t be without the person, will make you truly happy.

i don't need to date anyone to prove that i've moved on..

i just don’t get how some people think that it is when a person dates or likes someone else after an emotional strain is only when one has officially moved on. Seriously? I don’t need to prove to anybody that whether I’ve moved on or not. I know my emotional state and I know what its status is at. I don’t need others up my grill and have updates on that.

Excuse me, but I have a thing to do and it’s something called living my life.

i will...

"LIFE isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, it's learning to dance in the rain, it's singing in the car when you don't even know all the words, it's giving your heart to someone even if you're a little scared at first, it's about taking risks and making life worth living...because every MINUTE you WASTE, is a MINUTE you will NEVER GET BACK"

just a quote i received from a friend...who had been busy a lot lately...
(just sharin)

its the second half of the month...

its May..and its almost June..

time is passing by..

and im running out of time..

there's something significant for the next 6months of the year...its not about love, and its not about luxury...its about being happy...with Earth's own little thing...let it all come, let it all happen...im not afraid of being a part of a tragic story...

its not all about having a partner, its not just about another love story...its about how one person can find the inner happiness and how one can enjoy life..im not afraid of being alone, coz i never am..i've got someone on my back, what more could i ask for?...

im never alone, and you're never alone for sure...coz we all have someone, not necessarily a lover...right?..some people enter into relationships because they feel lonely..some because they're insecure..we may have different reasons, we may have different paths...but one thing's for sure..we just wanna feel loved...

im turning 20 this year, and i stiill cant believe...all the things i have been going through, i wondered how i still live...wondered how i survived through the downfalls of my life..wondered how much pain i've felt, when i figured out the truth about my life..maybe that's just the way it is..its just part of the journey..and im willing to face anything..just to feel what i've been looking for..after all these years..i know what i want in life...maybe sometimes i wanna give it a rest, but that doesnt mean i give up..i just need to recharge to be ready for the next challenge...

i dont wanna miss anything..i just wanna know a little bit about everything...

a prince charming?

i don't believe in these things anymore...
whatever happens, happens!
that's it...
we don't need to analyze everything, right?
sometimes there are also trick questions...

James doesn't deserve to go home!

have you watched the elimination of American Idol 10 this week?

I can't believe the vote results on this week's performance...James was actually the one who really stands out from the competition...SERIOUSLY!...he had a great performance on both rounds...i got cried the moment he was eliminated...he really have this passion for singing...

journey

been through the ups and downs..

in the never-ending sequel called "LIFE"

"next chapter please?"

chapters...that's all it is..one word i can relate a part of my life into..and through one's experience, people tend to change...and one's experiences turned into memories..

then i just realized..we dont remember a person who became part of our lives because of what they had told us..instead, we remember them by how they had made us felt..how they touched our lives..

looking back..in all those challenges, those moments when i felt so down felt like hopeless..i wondered how did i survived??..coz back then, i was so fat..seriously..and that is the reason why i had low self-esteem..and maybe that is also the reason why people around me keeps on saying that i am 'humble' or 'down-to-earth'..a close friend of mine once told me that i am 'one in a million'..and i thank him for that..as what i had said, i just wanna feel loved and be admired..=)

yesterday i didn't opened the notebook that's why i haven't posted anything here..i spent some quality time with a friend..(i really had a great time)..when i was about to go, i was walking on the street..then suddenly i looked at the sky..i felt like im in peace..i imagined that i was in the rooftop..staring at the stars all night..and i dont want that to end..then i remembered the moments i've spent near the beach, sitting under the tree..i miss those days..

anyway..yesterday, i just felt so thankful..i have my friend with me who understands and listens to me..(she's my other half...almost like a sister to me..a best friend..)..yesterday was a very special day to her, im glad i became a part of her moment..there was just the two of us in that celebration, her dad and me..(her mom is currently working far away from home)..we share everything we have in mind..and im lovin it..we can be ourselves when we're together..what more could i ask for??..

gs2ng gs2 q ung kah8 anu na lang ung nasasav namin sa isa't-isa..bout sa lovelife nman, bout sa nangyari dati naman..at thankful kami kc d namin na imagne na gan2 kami kaclose hanggang ngaun..yesterday she told me "i like you better now coz you've changed and worked on your weaknesses"..xempre tao tayo..nagbabago sa mga pinagdadaanan natin db?..i came out much stronger than i was before..and think for all the best..this is where i am, and im not taking that for granted..leave all the past behind..keep moving forward..

"thank you for being a part of my life"..that's all i can say to those who have made me much stronger...thanks to my past relationships for leaving me and for the pain coz i turned out pretty good...thank you for the betrayal, it had made me realized that you cant trust all the people in the world..thank you for being weak, it made me realized how much you can lose something big...

what a journey!...

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So there are cakes and pillows and colours galore, but underneath this more obvious patchwork quilt are places like a quiet room where you can go and hold someone's hand and not have to say anything. Give no story. Make no claim. Where you can live at the edge of your skin for as long as you wish. This wide wide Heaven is about flathead nails and the soft down of new leaves, wild rollercoaster rides and escaped marbles that fall then hang then take you somewhere you could never have imagined in your small-heaven dreams.

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If I had but an hour of love, If that be all that is given me, An hour of love upon this earth,

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I was in the blue horizon between heaven and earth. The days were unchanging and every night I dream the same dream. The smell of damp earth. The scream no one heard. The sound of my heart beating like a hammer against cloth and I would hear them calling, the voices of the dead. I wanted to follow them to find a way out but I would always come back to the same door. And I was afraid. I knew if I went in there I would never come out. 

all i need in life is to be loved and be admired...so thank you..

NEW CHAPTER PLEASE.....THANK YOU....

NEW CHAPTER PLEASE.....THANK YOU....

NEW CHAPTER PLEASE.....THANK YOU....

NEW CHAPTER PLEASE.....THANK YOU....